So there's a part of me that doesn't even want to go into the details of this last year. But in a brief summary I will explain the absence of posts. Lost our house to foreclosure, moved, and once we finally got our house put away and organized, a tornado came and wiped out half of my town out and 162 people in it. And my parents and grandmother moved in with us. My grandmother moved out. And moved into an apartment a month after. We decided due to the financial issues we have had that we are unable to make any ground on, particularly a famous Federal entity, everyone knows and has to make it a point to deal with every year) we are filing bankruptcy. Not excited about, but at this point it is a necessity. And my parents stayed while their house is being rebuilt. I had surgery in August for my Endometriosis (I didn't really know I had) My parents house is almost complete, and they are almost able to move in. But.... I found out last month, we're expecting our first baby! Yay, finally... Apparently, the endometriosis was bad enough it had impaired my fertility this whole time. So now, I'm in baby mode. I feel awful, don't feel like doing anything. But the so called "nesting" is already starting. And I want my house organized and finished (finished meaning, floors sanded and stained, walls & trim painted, tile laid in the bathroom and kitchen, new bathtub) before this baby gets here. I am officially 10 weeks this week! And I have been looking online for a way to journal this pregnancy (since this is my first). I want to make sure I don't forget a detail. I started one the week I found out online, but somehow its not showing up on the website I started it on. So I will have to back track a bit. I won't do it all in this post. (no worries, I'm not that long winded today.) And then we also lost my grandmother last week. Although you know that day is coming, and you prepare as much as you can. She is still missed, and loved. And as ready as everyone was for her to pass (as she had a severe case of dementia) for her sake. It doesn't make it easier. As you wish she never had to go through this disease. And millions of things run through your head. I'm ready for a more positive side of life. And I have to beleive this baby is it!
Well, as I'm sure you can tell, I'm not going to hide the details of my life, as I'm not the first to go through them, and I will not be the last. Even if the only person who ever reads my post is me. I am OK with that. As I want to document this this life I'm venturing into. :)
